“I tell people not to bother with looking for a boy who opens doors and walks you to your car. Because they’re just a little more acknowledging. But at the end of it, everyone stops doing the little things.”
Lately, I’ve been having those days where I just want to shut everything off. Shut my senses, shut my emotions, shut out people from getting to close. I don’t have the time for unnecessary closeness, you know? Why would anyone want to open their heart to someone and willingly give up everything for them to have the other person say “Oh, actually, nvm. I take it back, I don’t want it.” There’s too many things in life to deal with, and honestly, anything temporary is just pointless.
Sometimes I miss you.
But I think that’s just me hating the idea of being alone. So I force myself to believe that I miss you.
I don’t. Not really.
I’m not going to change for you.
I don’t care how much you think you have such an effect on me, but I won’t feed your ego. I’m not the type of person that gets easily pushed around. If you think you had that kind of power over me, well, I’m sorry for disappointing you.